There are so many things in life that change a person. I used to be strong willed and had confidence in myself even tho I had low self-esteem. Where did I lose my self-confidence? When did I become so shy and reserved? I have always been shy, but now I almost have a FEAR of people. I used to spend countless hours on the phone with both my girl friends and also the boys I liked. Now, I'd rather send a call to voicemail and immediately text the person back. I have changed in the past 7 years. I am not saying it's Aaron's fault, BUT .. I know he had a hand in it. I would like to have some of the old me back. A little over a month ago, one of my girl friends was shocked by my fear and refusal to give a guy my phone number. She told me that this "isn't the Erinn I know" .. She said that I always went after what I wanted, and got it .. Hate to break it to you honey .. But I'm not that girl anymore .. I am feeling a bit down in the dumps again over boys (although I had a VERY positive and directional conversation in the past week) .. But it's just standing still. I need to find the nerve to just call .. I think tonight is another HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU kind of night .. Damn .. The script writer modeled GiGi after me! Good grief!!