P.S. I Love You

So, I finally watched "P.S. I Love You" .. GREAT movie .. I cried all the way through it. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's about the 1 year journey of a girl who's husband just died. Although Aaron didn't die, I feel I am on the same journey. I haven't found anyone who I want to be with that wants to be with me too .. Maybe I'm not ready to. Maybe I'm not ready to fall in love .. I know I want to be in love and I wanna be happy again, but maybe my heart and subconscious just aren't ready .. I know I need a lot of attention and maybe subconsciously I find the guys who are unable to give me the attention that I need. I'm not asking a lot of "Mr. Right" .. But all I have found is "Mr. Right Now" and that's asking a LOT of him .. But at the same time .. I don't wanna be alone forever .. I am just hurting so badly right now .. my head is spinning ..