I'm Free !!

For just shy of the past 8 months, I was in a horribly miserale relationship. Of course, it wasn't ALL miserable. I really cared until like the past 2 months. On a daily basis, I would cry and he said at least one mean think so me .. sometimes even during sex. I wanted so long to be in a relationship .. but after that one .. I am SOOOO happy to be single !! I am ready to be the happy go lucky loving and active person I used to be.

I went out with one of my girlfriends last night and we had a great time listening to an amazing band !! I have known the drummer for like 13 years or something. LoL. He is a great guy and I am glad we went to support him.

I am ready to hang out with my friends again .. both male and female. I am ready to make my own decisions .. I am ready to have 2 hour phone conversations with my seester again .. I am ready to sit on the couch watching TV, texting, and surfing the web .. I am just ready to be ME !!

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50 dangerous things you SHOULD let your kid do!

So, today I heard about a book (http://www.fiftydangerousthings.com/about-the-book) and it has me a bit intrigued. I have been working really hard on giving my kids (especially my 7 1/2 year old son) more responsibility/independence. It is a VERY different world out there now than the one that I grew up in. When I was 7 1/2 I would be out riding my bike with my friends until the street lights came on and I am having big time issues letting my son go across the street without me. I know I need to try some of the things on the list. Thanks to google, here is the list (without having to buy the book) .. (anything in BOLD is stuff I have let my kid(s) do...some of this will be really hard for me to let go a bit more...)

lick a 9 volt battery
play in a hailstorm
master the perfect somersault
kiss hello like the french
stick your hand out the window
drive a nail
drive a car
throw a spear
make a bomb in a bag
play with the vacuum
throw rocks
play with dry ice
boil water in a paper cup
put strange things in the microwave
throw things from a moving car
drop from high places
burn with a magnifying glass
walk home from school
stand on the roof
squash pennies on the railroad tracks
spend an hour blindfolded
bend steel
break glass
construct your own flying machine (i think paper airplaines count)
look at the sun
learn dramatic sword fighting
make a slingshot
climb a tree
perform on the street
dam up a creek
go underground
change a tire
dive in a dumpster
deconstruct an appliance
go to the dump
poison your friends
fly your homemade kite
learn tightrope walking
cook something in the dishwasher
find a beehive
cross town on public transit (my daughter LOVES the double decker busses)
break the recipe rule book
whittle
make a rope swing
play with fire
superglue your fingers together
melt glass
explode a bottle in the freezer
sleep in the wild


Hmmmm .. looks like I have a LOT of letting go to do !! Wish me luck ..

RESERECTED!!

hello all my bloggers out there .. I have found my blog .. I thought it went away somehow .. I am glad I found it .. So much has been going on I don't even know where to start.

I am trying to plan a trip for myself, my kids, and my niece to go bisit my parents in Michigan for a couple weeks this summer .. but it it proving to be almost impossible. I am freakin out since we had already told all 3 kids about it and they are all looking forward to it. We will figure SOMETHING out I am sure ..

My brother & his family moved to Texas over a month ago and I am feeling lost without them. My sister-in-law is my best friend and it sucks that she now lives 1900 miles away from me. I need a Seester hug .. PRONTO!! We were on skype for an hour and 15 minutes the other day and that was refreshing but it made me cry also. I got to see my nephews and blow them kisses .. but it's not that same as when i could just scoop them up in my arms and smother them. I miss them so much.

Xander is out of 2nd grade now and on summer vacation. The theme song to PHINNEAS AND FERB keeps playing through my head ..

"There's 104 days of summer vacation
And school comes along just to end it
So the annual problem for our generation
Is finding a good way to spend it

Like maybe...
Building a rocket
Or fighting a mummy
Or climbing up the Eiffel Tower

Discovering something that doesn't exist (Hey!)
Or giving a monkey a shower
Surfing tidal waves
Creating nanobots
Or locating Frankenstein's brain (It's over here!)

Finding a dodo bird
Painting a continent
Or driving your sister insane (Phineas!)

As you can see
There's a whole lot of stuff to do
Before school starts this fall (Come on Perry)

So stick with us 'cause Phineas and Ferb
Are gonna do it all
So stick with us 'cause Phineas and Ferb are
Gonna do it all!
(Mom! Phineas and Ferb are making a title sequence!)"

Ok .. for now .. I shall go ..

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Today I need to write about something that I love about myself. I would have to say I love that I am a loving and committed person. Weather it be to my friends or my family, I always am there for them with all that I am !!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Something I hate about myself .. hmmmm .. probably my motivation, or lack thereof. I make a decision and I have NO problem committing to it .. but it seems to usually be short term. For example .. I want to lose weight .. I truly do .. more than ANYTHING .. but I can't seem to stay motivated on a workout/diet plan. And I will start to write a letter to someone but it never gets sent, because I never finish the letter. And my blog for another example .. so, this is me attempting to stay motivated and see it through ..

Any tips on improving my motivational skills ??

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eBee

30 Days of Truth

Ok, so I stole this from Maggie who stole it from Cherice .. LoL .. It seems like a good idea and to keep me Busy .. LoL .. I definaitely have a LOT of free time on my hands. For 30 days I have to follow this list and do everything it says..

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

I think I can do it .. Hopefully .. LoL

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

Ok .. so I am a little late .. better late than never I think. Ha. This year has started off very interesting to say the least. I am ridding myself of some mental rubbish this year. I have some great things to focus on: the most important (other than my kids, of course) is school !! I have just started back to get my degree in photography after taking 4 years off. My divorce has been finalized for over a year and my life is truly my own !!

I should be sleeping, I do work at 6am, but I have some other stuff on my mind. One of the things is I am sitting here periodically looking at my phone waiting for my track ball to be blinking BLUE. Fat chance tho .. it's after 11pm .. I doubt anyone is gunna be texting me. But then again .. ya never know. I am trying to track dwn old classmates that I have lost touch with over the years and plan a reunion. I have over 2 years, but I wanna have a good plan so we have time to keep searching and have a great turn out. Maybe I can get some teachers to show and Mr. Myli and maybe even a guest appearance from Mrs. Marsalis !! The search has begun. But I will need a copy of the yearbook (I am such a bad editor .. I let mine get lost in a move from my mom's) so we can search for everyone on campus rather than just the select ones we kept in touch with on a normal basis ..

Ok .. more blogging soon .. sweet dreams everyone out there in cyber space :o)